Monday, February 22, 2010
Today was one of dhe greatest day i had. Well, i mean for school :x
Mdm brenda didnt cme so Mdm Shirley took over her class. Woots :DD
After taking dhe IBSC class, it's our break time. After break was Mdm Shirley's Pastry demo class. She showed us hw to make dhe puff pastry paste :DD A lot of rolling & folding. Blur @.@
It was dhe most relaxing demo lesson i ever had as well. Hahas :DD
After that was Mdm Irene's Effective Communication class. Very boring plus sleepy :x
So i slept a little when she gave us a break. After her lesson was my Home Sweet Home journey :DD
When i'm abt to reach hme, i msg LiYuan :DD
Ask him cme dwn pei wo chit chat awhile. Hahas. Dhe wind was like so POWER lorh!!
We chat from 6 till 6 plus. Forgot till when. He wan go bck den i dun wan. So i told him to go first.
Then tears started gathering in my eyes. Baby...
Today indeed was one of my greatest school day. But it was one of my saddest day.
All becos of Baby...
He didnt answer my phone calls or reply my text for 2 whole days! I'm feeling very insecure at dhe moment.
Today i text him, call him but it's useless.
Jus once, at exactly 10:08am today dhe phone got through. But a girl, i assume it's his elder sister, picked it up & tell me that he's still slping.
So there's nothing i cn do abt it. After sch i called him agn. This time it's 4:36pm, he must be awake! That's wad i tell myself. There's no way he still be slping.
I called! But wad do u know? Jus WAD DHE HELL is happening? He didnt answer!
I gave up. It was him who taught me nt to give up easily. He taught me do my very best. He taught be hw to love someone when i've already given up on loving someone.
& nw this is hw he's treating me. Wad was all those things he told me? Wad was those promises he made to me? I guess they're jus nothing.
I gave up. I totally gave up. It's dhe third day. I told him that i had it, told him that we need to talk. He didnt even reply. Guess he doesnt give a damn abt it anymore.
I really wanna tell him that if he's jus avoiding me then might as well break up. I had it. I dun wanna suffer anymore becos of him.
But i didnt have dhe courage to send him that msg at all. Why? It's becos i dun wanna lose him. I dun wanna break up with him. But why exactly is he doing this to me?
I should have known that there's sth wrong with us. Whenever i ask him abt sth, he'll tell me that it's a secret. I rmb asking him wad he's doing & he told him he's planning sth. I ask wad it was & he told me secret agn.
I ask him exactly hw many secret does he have? He told me lots.
I wanna know him more, i wanna get to know him more. I tried all sorts of method but it jus doesnt work.
He doesnt tell me anything. Why is that so? Am i that unable to trust? I am ur stead, nt someone else.
Why cnt u jus trust me? Is our relationship jus so easy to break off?
I wonder. I had it. I gave up. I dun wanna care abt anything anymore. Reply whenever u wan. Call me when u felt like it. I'll wait but nt for long.
Things jus cnt stay gud uh? I guess so.
Whatever i do will be jus my own business. Please, please jus dun tell me that u love me after all these. U ignored me for 2 days straight. 3, including today.
Though u didnt tell me anything. I assume it's gg to be over between us soon.
I really wanted to be with u. For as long as possible. But that wouldnt happen i guess.
I really hope u'll see all these but i doubt u even rmb my blog url. Nt to say to read it. I really love u a lot. I dun wanna let go but i had enuff. I cried so much. All for whose sake did my tears flow? Did u nt know or jus pretend nt to know?
If it wasnt dhe case that u're avoiding me. Could we still be tgt? I hope that i cn still stay by ur side. i ddnoe wad to do...
♥Our lips must always be sealed
7:53 PM
